Dd: Good morning ree,
Mom was very upset asking me last night" wats wrong with you both why you both are fighting from many days iam also watching " enough she said...
I didn't answer ree anything..
AZEEZ: What could be done please
Dd: Nothing sir, I just heard and kept quiet
AZEEZ: The reason why I suggested you to fix time to speak or quarrel.
It is an indication that I should not call you in the night
It is hard for you to respond me. I should not keep you in trouble. Because I proposed you in the beginning. Not you. And not till now. I guarentee you for your peace of mind henchforth please. I realised from you the way you screamed yesterday, would perfectly bring No peace in moms mind. I should not stand on the queue of unblessed people, by whom already she is suffering, to spoil peace of mind of you both.
How communication is important for any tasks in life. Communication should bring a light in ones life. A hope and future in someones life.
Communication is not mere saying good morning, good evening or Love you.....I dont believe in this please. It is OK
Rejection is common in my life. I see colors of life and I am a bigg fool and Joker
Dd: Ree, why do you call yourself as fool. Mom didn't say anything at all about you. Let me be clear..When I asked you the time to talk at 5:00 or at 6:30,,, you said I can't. You don't know that ? I didn't reject any of your ways ! Only iam been showed of being useless, irresponsible, not reliable, disrespectful, no communication skills,,,no gratitude to wat your doing for my wellbeing, and so on...Then how do I react ? I spoke so loud cause your saying me to shut my mouth and just listen, how cheaper it sounds or I felt. May be iam worthless for your expectations, but ree iam trying to be the way you want me to learn something. But you can say to me in many other ways..Why your treating me so badly, and it doesn't matter or I didn't mean to tell you that not to call during night time. See this had nothing to do with the subject at all and your thoughts are discriminating conversations in all possible ways of negativity ree towards me.
Iam making myself stronger not to give up on this shop issue because I have no source of income or no one to look or take care of me...Your not confident, or no trust means how do I show my seriousness and prove it ?
Iam feeling like iam dead after hearing all about me from your mouth ! I know wat iam, but iam not that bad either ree.
AZEEZ: Please be responded and by my side.
All other things are useless for you
Dd: Baye muchu this killed me ree.
If you go on your wish, you can. Believe Whom you wish. Who is there for me you only say, ree
AZEEZ: I dont know that
Dd: I have no wish at all, some hope you showed me and iam on it ree
AZEEZ: Many a times i tried you to come up. You dont support for yourself. I cannot do anything
Dd: Wat should I say now ? Iam doing my best ree..
AZEEZ: Simply indulging in unwanted and useless things.
Dd: What should I do ?
AZEEZ: Ok thats your personal. But dont involve me. I am tired of working on worthless people
Dd: Am I worthless ree ?
AZEEZ: I felt, something towards, you are more inclined. Nowhere I stand, sometimes i feel why so,
Dd: Here iam the only one person there are no one else here except you, then who is worthless ?
AZEEZ: These are words mm. I believed, but not true. Someone is calling you in singular by name in front of me. What should i feel? Good
Dd: I want to do this ree seriously, and now you say iam not true ?
AZEEZ: You are working on you to be worthless
Dd: Now who is calling me in singular and wat it has to do with the present situation ?Your talking about what I don't know ? Seriously ree ?
AZEEZ: So
That s right?
Recall, You remember
Dd: What to recall wat to remember ? Let it be anything, but why is all those things coming in the midst of this life changing turn in our lives ? What is this supposed to be ? Reply to me please sir. Are you not willing to give me some hope and lead me ? You have me to dream big and showed me to live on to myself and stay stable and not to worry about anyone or anything, and when iam building it up stronger to stay strong your saying that you don't see truth in me ?
What's on your mind ree open up and say it. This is your words, that means your words are all gone ? And your not going to be on the same page ok ! Ok ree. This is my life, you just made me a joker to make fun and prove iam good for you. Thanks ree. Why did you puta seed of desire to live my own life a new beginning and shattered me...why ?
Cause you have power to knowledge, power of money, power of people, and stand with nothing ? I will be on streets only so this is my fate you gave back...Do you know how much deep I have taken this and dreemed off and told to all my known people about it and to support me to come over my shop. And now you took me to the square one where I was. I will be a beggar, and you be happy for not wasting your time, space, money, energy on worthless...
You know ree even though you said so many things I called Eramma, spoke to her in good terms and to get working together for my shop ! I do what ever you say, but in return you tell things which has nothing to do about the further times which will be better ! Even mom was coming to understand what iam doing means I will do it,, she said you will do it...what ever she may have in her brain..You were so nice and happy with this and told me to be this way only and see where you will go, and it was going so well suddenly you remember some things of the past and damage the whole hope of mine where I did not do anything...i was moving accordingly to wards your path only...Where did I do wrong ?
I don't have money to do it by myself if i had also there is no one like you to show me the correct road to achieve about which I know nothing...I was so happy once in life time that people will see me and tell...see Daly where she is today,,,,,!
This is called day dreamer 🖤
Be happy relaxed and stay blessed,,, You have a happy family, children, Wonderful Wife, who is accordingly to your Protocol, yes you have a safe job, A Home to Dwell in Peace....and many sources for extra income. What else, ? God will provide you what ever you long for....iam worthless good for nothing. I will die working this way in hospital, and with your words around me every single moment.... worthless, useless people around me.. enough you have gone through..
Even in dreams I had saw the shop name as 2D also...if you want you can ask Eramma...You don't believe me no more fine.
Thank you any ways for showing me new dreams and new life atleast for a short period of time..
AZEEZ: I said you to change your attitude towards any business. It is a different world. No one around you can help here. Only clear vision and needs may guide you to work on it. Neither Erama, nor Goushia or Rajesh....work on it
But you need all to some extend and not into your deep root of life
Ofcourse when you fill so many elements in your heart to carry, one side this family, other side that family......naturally I dont get space from you to talk or say something about the task. I never get back from my promises. So many tasks you assigned me, I did it for No purpose. In return No courtesy. People use me and keep it away. You know i should beg to do things as if I m doing for me. You knew who you are and who I am.
Do accordingly to your soul sayings. You knew well who am I and who you are and what you are doing now. Do care about your health, life..... Things will be alright.
